But still, every time someone unsubscribes from my mailing list, I have that moment of mourning for the loss.
"Goodbye. I'm sorry we weren't a good fit. I'll miss you!"
This week I lost four. FOUR! Now, the people just probably finally remembered they don't want to be a part of it and unsubscribed at the same time. But for me, I wonder...did I say something offensive in my last email? Am I boring?
And then that moment hits: Oh em gee, Kelsey, could you sound any more self-absorbed?? You unsubscribe from things all the time! Get over it!
And then I do. Because you're still here, and that is the best news ever! Truth is, my weekly emails aren't for everyone, and this week it was four people I actually KNOW and am friends with who ditched.
Know what that means?
It means I'm finally finding my tribe - my flock - the people who are all here for the same reason, because we believe we can make the world a better place by being loving and kind!
The people I know who subscribed to try and be a good friend don't need to be here anymore. They don't need to support me because no one else will.
Because, you know, *|FNAME|*, we now have each other!
And that's awesome.
Sometimes people in our lives have to leave in one way or another. Now, this way is just a silly email, but sometimes people leave in more permanent ways.
That sucks. But it happens.
A former friend of mine is having a concert tonight where his band is one of the opening bands for a bigger band in town. I'm not going, because we aren't connected anymore (and I'm not huge on concerts).
Last night I dreamed about a guy who broke my heart...which always has that foggy wake up moment where you go "huh, you're not in my world anymore."
Just the other night I got a text from my dad asking to get together - he hasn't asked to spend time with me in three months because he's been busy.
Our lives are constantly changing, shifting, growing, and sometimes people don't stay.
But hopefully we learn from that.
What I want you to walk away with is this: I will be here.
Even if you unsubscribe - sometimes we all need to - I'll be here.
If you're having an Ugly Duckling Syndrome day...I'll be here.
If you're reading this now and feeling alone. I'm here.
If people have left you and you're feeling low about it, or even if you're just feeling down, feel free to respond to this email. I'm here!
Heck, I'm here if you're having a fantastic day and just want to share some good news.
You can count on that.
The Swan Queen is totally in your corner.
All my love,
Kelsey Glued to this Spot Keating
You know that song where it says "I'm just going to keep calling your name until you come back home" that's on the radio all the time now?
Every time I Just think of this video.